MS Healing Post 1:
I was having trouble with my eyesight. Double vision was new for me. I was dropping things I held for no reason. My balance was unsteady and I would sometimes fall down seemingly for no reason. My wife, being the board certified psychiatrist that she is, insisted that I consult with a neurologist. Numerous tests and procedures were performed (to be described later). It was time for us to meet with the good doctor and hear the results.
When we went to obtain the results, the neurologist mumbled a few words at me and looked down at the floor while he spoke. I processed nothing of what he was saying to me. Repression is a remarkable phenomenon. He met with my wife for what seemed like a long time. Driving back from the doctor’s office to Arizona State University Student Health where my wife was the psychiatrist on the eating disorders team, Debby was uncharacteristically quiet.
When we drove into Student Heath and I stopped the car to let her out, I found out why.
“Well, I guess we will keep trying to figure out what is going on with me,” I said with resignation. “What are you talking about? The MS looks severe,” she said. Deborah never suffered a fool well.
“MS?” I innocently queried.
With disbelief Dr. Deborah Brogan said, “Didn’t he tell you that you have MS, multiple sclerosis?”
“What?” I asked.
Debby, answered, “You heard me. The doctor said you have multiple sclerosis.”
So it began, my fifteen-year journey through purgatory. I thought I must have made serious mistakes in a previous life. At the time it seemed as good an explanation as any for why I contracted multiple sclerosis, MS.
It turns out that I probably contracted multiple sclerosis because of conditions I endured in this lifetime which would include the cold climate I was born into in the Midwest, abuse as a child, drinking too much diet coke with aspartame, frequently having bronchitis, genetics, getting into a car accident when I was a 31-year-old, working out in a hot karate studio, etc. MS is a syndrome which I believe is ignited by a host of various factors coming together. I believe it to be the exception, rather than the rule, for multiple sclerosis in a particular person to be due mainly to only one causative factor. I think that is why MS must be fought on numerous fronts—it probably was caused by the totality of your life and now is affecting every aspect of your life.
At the time, I thought that I just wanted to return to my old self, the “I” your ego thinks of you as being. I never accepted the MS as being the real me. It was an adversary sent to test the real me. Little did I know how much my real self was going to change because of the battle, no the war, with multiple sclerosis.
Do any of you readers have experience being told you had a serious disease that stands out in your mind like it happened yesterday? If so, please share by filling in the form at the bottom of this post.
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Dream interpretation described in Dreams: Guide to the Soul which is available at http://www.drstevenfox.com was a part of the twenty things I did to send multiple sclerosis into remission.
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